i always had a query in me.

"why do we often fall for people who most probably would not appear in our social circles?"

and that meaning, "characters".

i often try to convince myself that, since mr/ms writer is able to "make-up" such a wonderful character that captured your heart, they must have met quite a few or even at least ONE to know that such a person exists. then, upon second thoughts, it's quite true that mr/ms writer can combine several individual's strengths and "merge" all of them into a certain character.

but still, i hope to know that there is ONE such person whom i find perfect and would exist.

many a times i reflect on my actions and stuffs. i won't find it shocking to tell others that i'm different. everyone is unique, but i'm just different.

i know i have a fate ahead of me, so so beautiful. i know i'm suffering now for a better tomorrow. these are perhaps the reasons why i haven't broken down. cause and effects. isn't that so?

also, i have been telling myself, "please, never make do with the alternative." if it's something that you have to consider twice due to the fact that you cannot get the one that you really wanted initially, don't settle for it. you won't be satisfied.

in such a case for love, you'll only end up hurting both parties.

in such a case where money's concerned, you'll only burn a bigger hole for your pocket for i am sure you'd try all ways and means to get what you initially wanted.

i don't know where i'm getting to now, but note this, i'm really different. =)
______________________________________contradicted yet agn at 3:27 am ;