sometimes in life, being serious could be a big big error.

i often wonder why can't i simply take things easily and lead the heck-care lifestyle i've always aspired to.

i know i'm being too much of a piece of wood at times. i really am. i just do not know how to open up.

perhaps i'm used to being alone. perhaps i'm just someone who doesn't know how to play along with the crowd. perhaps i take sides too easily and tend to be over protective. perhaps i do not know how to show that i care. perhaps i'm showing my care the very opposite way.

i know it's something wrong with me. deep inside me. but i can't help it if it carries on this way. it's just the typical me. of course, i know it's irresponsible to say "i can't help it.".

i'm trying hard, my very best to rid myself of my quirky solemness. and when i am almost about to see success, i feel myself drifting away all too soon.

if love is free, who'd willingly spare me? god, take me home to you, to feel loved, but not the way you take others who have left us here on earth. take me to you, but allow me to carry on serving my purpose on earth. i suppose i do have a mission yet to be accomplished.

i just know that i'm different.

needless to say, i'm superwoman. heh'.

i shall be strong.!
______________________________________contradicted yet agn at 3:23 am ;