the senses are right but factors aren't.

i do not suppose that things should be happenning this way.

somehow, life is unfair. (take it or whatever! for those who thinks otherwise.)

i too have times when i felt heaven was fair, and that's when i get what i want.

try not having what you want and we'll see if you'd at all put in a good word or two for "heaven".

i still believe that we should work hard for what we want, especially what we need.

i know it and i am working relatively hard for those.

but yet, somehow, not in a very correct manner.

i gain something, while losing some others.

i always thought i could cope.

i really thought i am superwoman.

now that i know. i have my limits. and i am tired out.

but the force behind me is still rumbling strong. i need those pennies.!

fcuk oh man. why couldn't we just carry on using pebbles as pennies.

this way, i would live by the sea. bahhs.

and could god if any lead me through?

i need to cope with my studies badly, i need to earn pennies.

which should come first?

should i at all defer?

to defer for the sake of whatever, money perhaps, or to carry on and slog for money as i somehow cannot bear with my classmates?

drop me a hint.

or maybe, someone should. i am sure i would agree with the answer from someone.
______________________________________contradicted yet agn at 3:14 am ;