okay larhs. clever people out there, you've got the answer! spot his mole. lol.

anyway, i believe that it is still due to his character in the drama serial. that guy is shaking my world man! lol.

i'm like "if only if only," and this is far worst than salivating over celebrities cause, this character is FICTIONAL. lol. though he also attracted me physically larh. haha.

i've moved on to his next drama serial - the magicians of love. hmm, the start ain't too bad. but i will forever preserve my love for - wang zi bian qing wa! haha.

i gotta run. so darn tired. another day of slogging tomorrow, back to normal which not exactly is.

but wait, i've still got tuition classes on tuesday,
project deadline this wednesday,
tuition on thursday,
then on friday, another day of projects,
saturday shall be my only break i suppose; if i go look for jarrett,
sunday, another day of slogging hard,
monday, exam preparations,
tuesday, tuition,
wednesday, exam preparations,
thursday, tuition,
friday, slog..
saturday, slog..
sunday, slog.........
monday, EXAM no.1...!!!!!
tuesday, tuition,
wednesday, exam preparations,
thursday, tuition,
friday, EXAM no.2.....!!!!!
and the list goes on.. like what the fuck right?

i'm damn packed larh. i think i'm beginning to hate the "notes" despite the fact that i cannot live without it. i know i'm not the most "ke lian" person on earth, for many are worse off than me, but i seriously don't think that i deserve all this!

where have all my carefreeness gone to? like shit! what wrong have i done in my previous life to lead such a life like this now? not that i'm unhappy or something, it's just that, why can't i be a rich man's daughter?

and even if not, at least get stuffs back to the past whereby i don't even have to work and can life good enough.

screw gates, he's earning a fucking amount of money EVERY MINUTE!



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