right, and if you think so.

i hate myself for wanting to get angry with you and forever you but always failing to. i don't know why. all i know is that i treasure this friendship so that much.

now i hate the fact that you have gotten everything wrong. since like centuries ago have i made noise about you neglecting me over him? i have not! in fact, i don't feel good inside when i hear of your situation with him. i just don't like your using him as an excuse for some other reasons.

and tell me, haven't i always been the one taking initiatives in this friendship? do you know how bitter i feel when i have to convince myself that "oh, she simply just cannot be bothered larh. let it be. i'll just have to contact her."

i dislike the feeling that you actually make me feel so convenient at times. at every stage of quarrels, you always seem to have the upper hand. you always make yourself sound so right. i haven't been making any noise have i?

you know it all along that i like to voice out what i feel. and you always claim it to be the typical me. but what? it's like so disgusted to you now?

in fact, i found an excuse which is like seriously a help needed and i made that call. what have i gotten in return.? i don't wanna elaborate. you might be fuming at my messages, trust or trust me not, i made no second thoughts when i typed them. it was all what i thought. i didn't know what those tears were there for. i just hope that they were there because i am often caught in that kinda cases. but sad to say, i'm not one?

whatever the case. words cannot make anything out larh.

let's just hope pray and believe that time will heal.
______________________________________contradicted yet agn at 2:56 am ;