i have a confession to make.

I MISS......

lotsa stuffs in my life.

and due to that i've been losing lots of sleep lately.

it's nonsense, but i just cannot control the way my brain wants my body to function.

anyway, life's like this.

especially mine.

forever so contradictive.

i'm like so used to it and not.

whatever.

better not contradict myself further.

i know what to do now.

the only one thing is. get to bed and shut my eyes, and most importantly, put my brain at rest.

else, it's redundant. agree?

lastly, just want to let people in a little on my crazy friend who called me out of the blue today. lol.

mr francis chai meng yeow. (i forgot how to spell his hanyupinyin le larh. haa.)

fcmy: elaine! i saw your boyfriend leh!
me: o.O? boyfriend? (jokingly asked - which one. hahas.)
fcmy: nor!! that one lor. recently he published a book.
me: (hmm..? edison publish book meh? cannot be ming dao oso mah. i don't like ming dao that much i guess. i like shan jun hao! shawn? even more impossible. zaizai? forget it le larh. haha.) WHO larh.
fcmy: joshua larh. (and he giggled away.)
me: orhh. what's up with him?(trying to act asif joshua's really my boyfriend, whereas i never ever told anyone i wished he's mine boyfriend. NOTE! this boy only looks very cute to me can?! lol.)
fcmy: he just now at suntec for an autograph session for that i not stupid 2 book lor. i wanted to let him sign but lazy to queue. then hor, you are the first person to come to my mind leh!! see i so good.
me: -.-"' appreciated. lol. but, book fair.. hmm, how much is the book first?
fcmy: $14.90.
me: eh, don't think i'll waste $14.90 on that kinda pictorial book? i mean, i'm like spending money on books like da vinci and angels and demons lately, why that pictorial book?
fcmy: i still thought you want lor..
me: eh, you say so much, you want buy for me isit? i don't mind one lor actually. hahas.
fcmy: yalarh yalarh.
me: seriously, my birthday's like at october 25th larh. you can buy me a present earlier one. no worries.
fcmy: okay lor, $14.90 only.

so, mr pok kwey, better make sure okay?! lol.

i'm waiting... haas.
______________________________________contradicted yet agn at 7:51 am ;