i am guilty. very guilty. i spent so much today. what a sin. but, i somehow am very satisfied with what i got in return despite my guilt. hahas.

a bag, a jacket, spaghetti, belt.

zoe's CRAPS. lol. we're both on par for being crappy. lol...

whee*

maybe the joy of being able to earn $600 a month free and easily is kinda overwhelming, it calls for a mini celebration. but i guess, i'll control myself. i shouldn't be splurging even before i receive my first paycheck. hahas!

before that, another mini sum of $50 from the temple to aid me survive till my $600 bucks come rolling in. hehe.

i guess the first thing i'd do is to bring ling to cafe cartel or pastamania. to make up for her birthday pressie and whatever. hahas.

assignments due next week. bahhs. i'm glad i have already done some of the econs assignment. but, the upcoming marketing test is something i haven't at all studied or rather, revised. how "great".

recently, i've been receiving questions like, "will you be going to joshua's party at kbox?"

i'd like to reply to all who have asked, "no. i will be giving tuition on that day and i believe that the timing clashes with the event. also, i have to join his fanclub which i never will. i'm not like crazy."

hahas. a little bit more of info, i spoke to his brother today. hahahahas!

hmm, talking about joshua, reminds me of shawn. gosh. his broken finger, if anyone could recall. after i read his post on that, it dwelled on me the very next second, i needed to order a metal glove. maybe, not enough. i need an armour. hahas!

people, believe it or not, i am a scardey cat. yes. i am afraid of injections, animals, blah blah. though i'm quite afraid of horses, for they are damn tall, and when you ride on them, the only feeling you'd get is "fall the next moment", but, to all of your amazements, horses are, perhaps the only animals i dare to TOUCH, and i have actually rode on horses for quite a few times. haas.

and when i was younger, i ain't afraid of birds and dogs. i remember i went bird feeding with my parents and grandparents. we bought green beans, and threw the seeds all over. some of which even got into my shoes. lol. we had such close contact with the birds, only that they didn't place their beaks on our hands.

my neighbour had a dog. black one at that! i used to cuddle it and fall asleep on my neighbour's sofa together with the dog. i can also remember going to my cousin's grandfather's house, those kampong style type over at fish farm road, we sat on the back of the wolf dogs, and played. man, tell me why am i so afraid of birds and dogs now!

i freak at the sight of any animal! sickening. i could even feel a chill sent down my spine. man, what the hell is wrong with me? lol.

supposedly, i can explain my fear for birds. i remember once when i went to the zoo with my parents, a peacock gave chase after me, and i ran like mad, till i was so afraid. perhaps, that's when i started developing a fear for feathered animals.

but for dogs, i really don't hell know why larhs! hahas. terrible! but it's also good to be afraid of dogs. so much so that for someone so full of emotions even for non-living things like me, would love to rear dogs if i'm not afraid of them. but, i'd cry like hell once they pass on. duhz.

back and down to the only word to describe me, CONTRADICT! hehe.

anyway, i guess this entry is so filled with nonsense. i shall stop. LOLs.



______________________________________contradicted yet agn at 1:47 am ;