too rash a decision made? perhaps to thse who don't know, yes it is.

i might or might nort regret. who knows. i juz noe, wht i did the past 8hr todae was hell in a relaxing manner. u can't imagine the lvl of stress in processing each single document and the accuracy u hafta be v.aware of.

the dealing wif clients and whtevr it may be. whnevr u meet fcuked up ones? it all happened on the v.first dae. pc went cranky, nth was right. even whn i went down to VIEW a completion case which wld normally take at most 15mins, took near an hr.

the terrible traffic i hafta face. the bloody age gap i haf wif the rest. mind u. tey are mostly married and haf kids, and teir kids are of ages, ADDICTED to mapling. can u roughly figure out teir age? thou' tey're nice to mi, but i didn't feel comfy.

and oh. i had a blazer on todae. regardless of tht, the aircon is freezin' mi. and i felt like suffocating to be somehw "compressed" in such a small area.

mayb these thots wld vanish whn i age more. but for nw, i reli wna do smth more happenning. i noe i'm terrible.

i'd feel v.terrible in front of my parents. SORRY. i've like disappointed em. but, daddy mummy, i too thot tht was wht i wanted to do. but tings reli differ whn u experience it. perhaps too much bqt-ing has led mi stray. i've nvr been rebellious during my younger daes. let mi be tis once?

terrible.! nvr felt wrse.


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