well, went to wrk. was SHIOK.

did 1 to 1, which was super easi. plus, bonus came along. thr's tis v.beachy lookin' guy at my table, and anthr super "si wen" guy too. woots. eyes were flying off during dinner. LOLs.

aniwae, frm teir conv., all seated are "ah-seah kias". oh my freakin' god. y ain't i born as teir sisters? LOLs.

hmm. 2 fights in one night at carlton. juz realised tht captains these daes are super hot tempered. somehw, it's fine for them to skold staffs and even to the extent of minor vulgarities involved larhs. but, it juz ain't right larhs. tey're too rash.

and, great news for myself. whahahas. apart frm my relatives, thse wrkers frm 717, todae, hongwen told mi tht i slimmed dwn, ALOT. lols. weeee* haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas.

okie. i'm gettin' mad. hahas.

wait. i lorve cakes. recently, i've been sorta havin' a cravin' for cakes. yes. yummy ones. need nort be thse super expensive ones. so long as it's soft and creamy yarh? haas. will i get 19 cakes for my 19th bdae? whahahhaa.

if so, i'll prolly be commented, "oie, U FAT liao hor?" haas. better nort. leave tht cravin' till it fades off. =D

i'm juz soo confused larhs. with so mani stuffs happenin' almost at the same time, and thse stuffs tht has been goin' thru my brains since xxx yrs, mths, wks, daes back.. i reli dunno wht to do. my cells are somehw, officially dead. no more room for circulation. i might need to be declared dead. =/

u noe juz hw i feel, but i'm still figurin' out ur thots. such stuffs ain't fair. get tht contrary? i dunno larhs. it's tht kinda "yes n no, no but yes, yes yet no, no still yes" kinda actually simple yet made complicated sorta stuffs tht i've been fussin' over. arrrrh. shld stop. whtever.

i hafta learn to grow up, mentally. i seriously realised tht i dun haf a feminine side, which i actually do haf, but nort enuff. as in, grooming? LOLs.

i'd often fantasize wearin' super stylish clothes on the streets. but, often re-embarked by tis saein. "u dun make up, wear so nice for wht?" and also, i myself owis believed tht beauty is in the eye of the beholder. y bothr to doll up juz to cast tht so cored "important" first impression to someone u(i) cld least bothr abt.

noe 1 ting? i am an absolute turn off to guys who comments on u being beautiful, thn goes after u. tht is sooo superficial can? i'd prefer guys who wld actually comment mi based on wht i reli am abt. and also, i'll only feel at ease wif guys whom i feel comfy wif. such as, we can crap, "communicate" tht's the wrd. seldom do i find myself comfortable tokin' much to guys. these are rare cases.

some of which, i cld communicate wif thru msn, but nort whn we meet up. some of which, i cld crap all dae long, but nort a wrd in msn. funni rite? but tht's juz me. i'm simply a weirdo. trust me. u can bet on tht.

counting dwn to old age, which i lorve and dread......


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