bored. i guess i really need a breakaway. whn tings ain't happenin' the way i want it to be, i suffered absolute setbacks.

been watchin' superstar. and yes, i do understand the msg shi xinhui's tryin' to convey whn she sang "beautiful", no matter hw hard li weisong tried to emphasize tht was not wht the song is all abt. but, i totalli support her for tht. no doubt, thr's been mani rumours abt her. but, she is standing strng, and for thse who do not understand her stand, deems tis as "haolian". bud juz reflect on hw humble u urselves are first. =/

i can't help feelin' sad tht derrick's outta da game. he lost to a blind man! -.-"'

in life, mani a tings we try so hard to achieve, are so easily achieveable by othrs ard us. do tht mean we ain't good enuff or simply, sucked? i still dun understand.

i noe god made us all different. but, how ? the gap in between is ? i guess i nvr wld noe. and hopefully, i cld live a life of bliss happily in my dreamtown. yes. tht's whr paradise is for day-dreamers. someone who seemed to scrape thru her life wif the help of the brain which functions in a more "cheeky" way, by which enabled her to stand out thru easier stages, has to suffer in e end. and tht's mi.

i often, bud nw at times, tink back. whn i reflect, i seriously regretted. but i told myself, regret is not to be in me. livin' wif regrets is such a horrible feeling. yes, indeed.

i dunno if it is the prob wif the way my family brought mi up, or simply i myself am someone "different". i felt such an alien wif my frens. wht tht i adore, wht tht i admire, wht tht i am interested in.

i look at funny tings, thse tey claim "eee, so boring. eee, so erxin." etc.

i lorve reading biographies tht cld simply bore em to slp.

i am capable of sitting thru a chinese opera which i suppose tey rather bang teir heads agnst teir pillows and fall alsp no matter hw awake tey are.

i believe in ghosts, god, and stuffs which tey summarize wif a word - superstitious.

i dare to love yet dare not admit, and tey sae i'm gutless. [thou' i agree, but tht's mi! alrite?]

i prefer to love thn be loved, by which all of em prefer otherwise.

i seek for almost perfection whn it comes to wrk/studies, tey simply "sui bian lah.."

i correct and pinpoint othr's mistakes and tey sae i am too into myself. whereas i oni hoped tey cld learn the right tings the right way if i am absolutely sure wht i wld "blurt" out is 100% right.

soo mani, soo mani vice-versas. wht shld i juz do? i thot tey said one's weakness cld mean anthr's strength? it oni depends on whr u stand, and hw u look at tings. so, does tis mean tht i haf been meeting the wrng peeps? and whn i felt i met the right ones, y do u haf to take em away, or rather keep em at arm's length frm mi? haf i offended u dear god?

i shldn't be whining. cuz god gaf mi goodies as well. but, i still cld not get pass tis mindset - y owis mi.

nvm. tml shall be a better dae. and it feels soo great to be able to blog tings out. whter others read it or not, at least i told "someone" - the webby, abt wht i reli felt inside mi. and for peeps who read, opinions on hw to lead life better. =)