i freaked out, i stop to ponder. i wonder wad life has in place for mi. it juz don't seem rite. at times, i doo hate my scorpion personality.

"wo wei ren ren, ren ren ke cen wei wo?"

perhaps. i dunno.

discovered drastic changes in my frens recently. n i wonder wad made or rather encouraged tat change? all seem to haf changed except mi. or maybe, vice-versa.

i dun like da way tings are nw. tryin' hard to get tings back to da past. it seems a tough struggle. i might breakdown.

anthr alternative's to open up? n change like tey did?

seriously, nort to emphasize on anitin' or rather. i felt like an idiot. owis contented wif 1 or 2.. ehs, althou' it's true tat true frens, u need oni a few. bud, wad if tey leave mi for other of teir true frens?

i dun like da idea of lookin' up tose whom i've actually left em outside my door once and invite em back in. get it? bud i seriously am afrd of losin' my close frens. tings changed too much. it sux.

i muz open up. tat's wad i reli shld do. make more nw frens, n stop shoverin' others outta my space. i need a big change. bud, i guess it's sum "action speaks louder dan wrds" tingy agn. u reli belif i wld do tat?

guess anione who noes mi well, noes i'm bad at handlin' tis kinda tingy. i seriously noe i do. i need sumone to tok to. n if u are willin to, do lemme noe. i'll nort reserve ani. i need solutions'. those of which, i might nvr tink of in my whole life time. i'm bad at tis.

WADEVA!
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