fuck tis life
perhaps wad i did were wrong,
bud frens were wad tat kept mi strong.
frm where i first picked up from,
it made my life change a brand new form.

cuz tey said u need nort mind,
bud wad tey meant weren't as defined.

i haf none bud sarcastic remarks,
and i noe i myself sarks.
so wad if tey pointed out,
i would still haf nonsenses to sprout.

cuz tey said u need nort mind,
bud wad tey meant weren't as defined.

been tryin hard to change soo much,
sought help frm soo mani such and such.
still i wouldn't let u noe,
for i want my face to still glow.

cuz tey said u need nort mind,
bud wad tey meant weren't as defined.

there's tis qn in my mind,
which made mi forever ask y.
it's juz soo contradicting,
it's nort made for believing.

tey appear to be angels,
yet i a downright devil.
is tat becuz of teir compromise,
tat actually sent mi to my demise.

yet i choose to heed teir advice,
i learnt nort to cry.
so long as tey are dear,
and i noe tat tey are here.

cuz tey said u need nort mind,
bud wad tey meant weren't as defined.

so, fuck my ass n screw my life.

wad tey meant weren't as defined. shld i really nort mind? shld i nort try? wad da fuck shld i do! freak tis life of mine!


ya. fuck tat. life's so fucked up. for dunno wadever reason, i don't wish to mention. quarrels btwn frens, wad a good ting. improved rltnship afta one? perhaps. bud fuck tat. tis kinda ting sux big time! i hate tat!

oh, frenster sux. frens? wah. i gort 383 frens ar? minus tat perhaps 50 brands, 333? sum idols 10? 323? sum i dunno bud yet noe, 100? 223? i don't even haf tat much on msn. everyone noes da maximum for msn is 150. so, where's da rest? fren.. pui.

i noe all my frens are irritated by mi. yet tey are da ones hu sae, do wad u deem fit. do wad u like. don't care bout others. so, i did. bud tey seem to mind, perhaps. perhaps one dae i shld becum dumb. so tat tis irritating mouth of mine will nort work. and i'll definitely be a lovely gal. yeah. nort forgetting to get myself a mask at tat.

perhaps i shldn't demand too much. peeps like mi, able to haf a few frens, is oreadi a gift frm god. am i right? maybe too right.

i'm juz nort at all caring, understanding, and wadever positive factors. all i haf gort wif mi are negs.

oh, and laugh all u want bout my singlehood of 18yrs till nw.

yeah. i'm downright unattractive alrite. no good pts oso. nth bout mi is right. nobody wants mi. okie? fine? wadever u wanna tink.

explainations? i can oni sae, i don't feel good bout tis kinda tings. i don't seem to like it. i only enjoy fantasizing those celebs being my frens or wadever. i look upon "big shots". so wad? tat's mi. n i noe i can't communicate wif guys. i seriously can't. for wadever freakin reason, i dunno. perhaps i'm lack of certain substances. freakin' true.

juz let tat fuckfuckfuck poem summarise ya fuckfuckfuck qns. i ain't sane at da moment.

fuck n screw my life. freakin mess.




nw i finally agree wif vio's nick. "life is like a dick. when it gets hard, fuck it!"

and nww, fuck tat.
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