E-L-A-I-N-E..

okie. if i'm nort wrong, according to bible, my name actually means "BRIGHT ONE" and in da ancient greek, it should be HELEN. okie. thus, u can't find da meaning printed on Elaine's page. u muz refer to HELEN. duhz.

well, bright? haas. wad's da use? bright bud nort smart? nort clever? haas. wadever my name shall mean. bud frm my own definition, fickle-minded..

haf no idea y, bud nwadaes i simply enjoy lookin back. tinkin of those tings i had done. well, to no avail thou. reli dun understand y i love lookin back on spilt milk or wadever tat may be.

came to an agreement, fickle-minded. bud, nort for everything or situation i muz claim.

first, e forever surrounding mi topic --> idols. (well, it has been curbed. haas. yeah i suceeded!) bud still, my eyes can't stop lookin at handsome cute pretty funky celebs. haas. i'll be like "oogling" wen i c em. haas. den start my daydreaming session bout being ard em, or rather havin a handshake wif em or wadever stuffs like dat. bud, well, tat's mi.

no matter hw mani times i sae tis is e last person i will support most ultimately, my LAST never stops. and i owis haf an excuse to bring myself on to supporting da next very celeb. haas. bud, do i carE? nah. leisure is purely entertainment for a fickle-minded women like mi. so, i do wadever i like. haas. happi? yeah. tat's enuff.

thou i claim myself to be fickle-minded nw, true lahs, even wen it concerns working.. bud there haf been jobs tat i haf clinged on to for a long period of time. namely, ling's papa's shop? and nort forgetting carlton?

i haf realised tat, wadever hardship i may haf to take, to endure, wad's most important tat i'm happy undertaking it. it's like da funs i had wif those msian workers over at ling's, and hihs cliques over at carlton? yupz. those fun n all were wad tat kept mi workin on n on.. i believe everyone feels tis way.

bud there's on ting tat i belive i def. haf to change, although it's seemingly impossible. e way i treat pple.

i dunno tis bud wondered if anione of u out there who happens to be librians, geminis, tauruses, seem to feel tis way.

often hit it off wif libras although our tinkings seem to be poles apart. well, 1 v.good example is goh mengling. others, needless to sae, for tis is da strongest bond i share wif a librian. it's smth unexplainable. =)

geminis, tat's a joke? haas. a prank by god i guess. it's juz like it's in my instincts i tend to treat geminis damn nicely. as in, others wouldn't get tat kinda treatment frm mi for sure. and god noes, i haf actually liked 2 geminis soo strongly ever once. bud haas, to da rest of my gemini frens, esp female.. never tink i'm les. haas. juz tat i treat u well, don't mean tat i like u. lols. it's juz smth bout ya gemini characteristic tat makes mi feel soo attracted, and tend to make myself wanna treat u well. and to add tis in, i often realise tat those whom i myself unbelievably treat em well are actually geminis afta i haf actually been sorta givin em better treatment even b4 i noe teir birthdates. weird? like i said, it's juz tat attraction tat geminis are givin out. haas. [no examples given. it's like soo long ago liaos. haas]

tauruses? well, tey often are da ones i confide in. another example, gqz. seriously, ever since knowin him, i haf been confiding in him, and of cuz goh mengling. i seem to love makin frens wif gohs. haas. although i owis find em to be extremely lazy, or like tey owis describe emselves as 'irresponsible'. haas. my cousie is another sweet example of a taurus i confide in. hees. well, frens for life? lols..

so, basically, those are da 3 categories of peeps i like to mingle wif. thus, i often find my circle of frens extremely small, or rather, i am anti-social? haas. bud it's soo hard to believe tat i'm actually anti-social. for i haf a forever non-stop operation mouth. i can crap wif anione i feel like. note "anione i FEEL like" well, can't be blamed. haas.

i haf a sorta extreme character. it's either extremely warm or cold. it depends. i feel like it, i do it. i don't feel like it, off to u wif my attitude.. is tat so? guess so. well, i don't enjoy makin enemies. it juz takes a smile at da v.first sight to make mi wanna make u my fren.

and for peeps who misunderstand mi even before tey get to noe mi? i hate tis kinda peeps to core.

for those who dislike mi and yet act as if tey care, pls, carry on cheating on mi forever, or, lemme noe straight. i hate hypocrites like nth.

last but nort least,

if it's something i don't like, it's something i'll never wanna haf, and will never haf...

for now, tat's my principle. i wun force myself to do wadever tat keeps mi goin. it makes mi feel soo FAKE!
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