`- happi b'dae singapore!

ok.. first, happy b'dae singapore! "._.p.e.a.c.e._." haa.. well.. rotted @ home 2dae? i woke up ard 3.30pm tis afterno0n.. yea.. was sooo tired tese few daes.. dunno wadz happening.. juz tinkin bout lotsa stuffs.. mani mani qn marks r in my head now.. y tis? y tat? how cum? bleah.. simply to0 mani.. i don't understand lotsa qns.. 'stead more impt den frens?' 'frens to be sacrificed instead of stead?' 'no time pei fren gort time pei stead?' bah.. all tese.. was long ago nort in my head.. bud recentli.. it came back.. shan't elaborate.. for tis is an online journal.. n though i link frenz.. read teir blogs.. bud sumhow.. i cum to realise tat.. sum pple hu r nort welcomed.. once read my blog.. n stirred sumwad of a trouble.. perhaps tat person read it oni once.. bud.. since there's a first time.. there might be a 2nd to0.. it's beta to be safe den sorri.. so i juz hope sumone could tell mi.. frenz n stead.. which is more impt? is a fren askin to0 much? or isit one reli can't afford to 'offend' his/her stead? n to those idiotic peeps hu like to cause trouble for nth.. 'go awaY! childish tinking.. a journal.. is written based on one's feelings tat dae? tat v.instance? somewhere to let go anger? rember happiness? n to forget sorrows? wise up! shut tat mouth of urs.. [no offence] ~lalala~ haa.. den hmm.. e topic tat i'm arrogant.. i owis knew it.. i noe.. i'm made tat way.. been trying to change.. bud nort reli much of a chance given? or rather.. i shall sae.. there r 2 type of pple on earth.. [v.go0d, v.bad] yeah.. those v.good ones whom i met.. keep mum bout it.. n try to tolerate wif mi.. those v.bad ones.. either keep mum n backstab mi.. or quarrel wif mi.. so far.. i suppose i'm rather lucky to haf met more go0d den bad ones? budden.. i reli mean no offence peeps! i juz love to speak my heart out.. my tinkings.. my feelings.. my eberiting.. if i am nort able to voice em out.. i might end up suffering.. [emotionalli?] i'm reli sorri.. if my voicing it out straight has offended anione.. mwahaha.. serious! sorri k? budden on e other hand.. no way m i gonna let my air of arrogance get off for my studies.. or rather in cls! i feel asif lots r trying to get mi down.. darn long story.. i wonder if i'm indebted to em? or i'm no longer of ani use to em? or rather tey're jealous? or rather tey're simply to0 free? to0 boring? wadeva tey may be.. i guess i will grow to accept it.. n heck wadeva tey do.. tey've never placed emself in other's shoes b4.. n i guess i tey do.. tey will regret it all.. all e bad remarks passed out from their mouths.. i don't mean to be arrogant! i seriousli mean it! if i get go0die results, n i ask u how much u gort.. it's either i wanna noe where i stand.. or juz noe for e sake of noeing.. n wen i get bad results n i dunwanna sae.. i oreadi feel bad enuf k! bud if i'm proud of my bad results.. haa.. i jolly well knew i did nort study at all.. lolx.. at times.. i try to keep quiet wen i get better results.. bud there'll be pple who will try to make mi arrogant.. by making noise b4 i could sae aniting.. to hell wif those childish peeps! i'm nort gonna care! bo0o! haha.. life's like tis.. muz learn to bear wif eberiting!!! haa... bud at times.. i reli do tink tat.. i'm doing all tese to protect myself? eberione would defend emselves.. don't tey? n i feel so alone eberiwhere.. be it my frens? for eg. go0d frens.. tey don't care! tey oni care for teir own happiness? own fun? it's all teir own! where do i stand? i look at other groups of frens.. tey stand up for each other.. bud one of my fren once told mi smth n it reli hurt mi soo deepli.. eben till now.. she said.. " do you noe tat helping you is a v.tough ting to do? eberione else will scold mi.." ermz.. wad e? since u take em as frens.. n care wether tey would scold u or not.. n leave mi in e lurch? don't bother mi at all will u? tat was wad i thought.. m i reli such a bad person? a freak? a bitch? a bastard? a slut? a fuckin attitude soul? sae so.. leave mi alone den.. i've reli had enuf.. frm now.. i'm gonna draw a clear line btwn my frenz.. n my non-frenz.. bloody.. had enuf nonsense! darn.. foreva gettin unhappi over tese issues.. ain't u pple tired of creating all tese nonsense? for heavens sake! look for another target! or rather end it! don't wanna c another suffering soul.. it sux.. tat kinda feeling sux! n i mean it! plus.. i muz mention tis! i hate HYPOCRITES!!! bleahx.. so so so.. darn angri.. so pissed off.. bud i'm still happi to sae.. i haf frens who care.. those r e ones who noes mi well ? thanks dude.. thanks for all ya toleratings! *cheers* to our frenships! weeee* k.. i shall end here.. or else i might end up wif more cursings! hehe..

[quote of e day]
'those who bloom in ther heart of others, will never fade away...'

LuRvEs...
[Eaine`-] o_O"?

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